I love animation, but it never loved me back.

It never did, and it never will.

Instead of constantly chasing after it, I should be focusing on things that I have with me right now, and the people that are with me all this time. 

I've been chasing for it for so long that I willingly burned bridges and sacrificed things just to barely get in. But at the end of the day, it was for naught. I ended up alone in all this, battling my own demons by myself without any proper guidance or support system around me.

Now that I've married, I have someone with me to weather all this, and I think it's just unfair for her if I'll still keep on pursuing this when I have more important things to address, and that life's getting more real by the minute. 

We need to secure our future first, then probably revisit this later on. But I really don't see myself going back. 

I've enjoyed animating but I guess things must come to an end in order to give way to another opportunity. Whatever it may be, I'm not sure. We'll see.

To those who I worked with, thank you for being patient with me, and I know that I'm difficult to work with. I've been trying my best all this time to make it easier for everyone.

To those who I still have a pending job, I'll settle my dues and will try not to disappoint. 

To those who I am collaborating with other things aside from animation, let's continue working on whatever we have, but I'd prefer not to talk about animation as often as we used to.

I need to put this behind me and allow myself to grow further.

This isn't for me, after all.